Saturday, December 31, 2005

You know what film that is, dontcha? (Yeah I hate that expression too... post PCD)

Dear Diary.Last day of the year.
I wish it was warmer. I wish I was in Ciudad de Mexico right now. Or in Miami. Or Cairo. Or Sydney. No, strike the last one, its too close to 2006.
I wish I was in Cartagena. I really wanna go there because my favorite movie of all time has loadsa action going on in that city. The rest of the action takes place in the jungles of Colombia, I have no plans of going there sometime soon.
Happy New Year though

the wonderful litterature i've read, yikes!

Dear Diary.
Just 24 hours until 2006!!!! Wow, time goes by so fast its scary! Planning to read another book tomorrow morning. Haven't recovered from the really weird Stephen King book yet. I have loadsa books about the Ancient Roman World from the time I was obsessed with... guess what... Ancient Rome!!! Have leafed through a few of them a coupla years back, even read quite far in the first volume of "The Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire" by Edward Gibbons, but I don't remember a single thing from it. Oh, the gift of a useful memory! That's what I want for my birthday... In 15 days peeps!
Hugs from my own biggest fan

Friday, December 30, 2005

long lines are waiting for me

Dear Diary.
Must eat. Soon. Very tired. Need to go to wine monopoly. Not looking forward to that... you know... long lines, perhaps the longest lines of the year. Tomorrow is the biggest boozy day of the year. Yikes. Must go.

Thursday, December 29, 2005


Dear Diary.
Something has been lifted off my shoulders... I likey, I likey a lot!
Whatever I might go through in life, I need support. Hell yeah I'm egotistical, narcissistic, the whole sha-bang, but I need support. And I need people who listen to me. They don't have to understand me, each to their own, everybody's different. But my family never ever listens to me, never ever takes me seriously, so the friends I have need to do that for me. And I need my friends to tell me things they need to tell, to actually take my advice seriously. When I'm cut out from the information chain, something is up. I should've realized this long ago, but I was waiting for my friend to make a choice. She sure did, but failed to inform me. Now that I've figured out her selection, I had to make the choice myself. And I've made it. I don't feel good, I don't feel bad, at the moment I kinda just feel, maybe with a hint of relief. In this situation, I have never felt relief before, but it is a good sensation. I must stop babbling, seriously. Could God please put a label on people? "Fake friend", "true friend", "unsure friend", "enemy friend"... cuz I sure go through hell to find out.
One more thing... Don't you hate it when everybody knows somethings wrong, but nobody does anything about it? I always try to lift things up and out to the surface, but nobody likes that, right? Let's just keep the facade... story of my life!!! Am I the true outcast? Of course I am, I always will be, no matter how normal I look.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

I won't go Coldplay on you anymore

Dear Diary.
Drama was what she expected, perhaps even wanted. Drama was what she got, with the help of (the slightly on the drunken side) me. What can one expect with that combination of people, I do not know, but drama was in the cards.
Now I've been having strange dreams for 6 hours about Disney and whatnot to wake up dehydrated and unable to sleep. A glass of water goes well with bitterness. I'll probably regret everything by the time the headache passes, but I know I meant all I said and am only guilty of caring. I know that is kind of a bad excuse for going on a drunken rampage, but in a way I'm glad. I never liked it around those people anyway, neither did the focal point of my insanity.
So. Some bonds are better left broken. It is none of my business anymore, relax, I'll shut up.

Song lyrics

Armand Van Helden - You Don't Know Me

I don't ask for nothing
I'm always holding my own
Everytime I turn around its something
People talking about what they don't know

And when I try to move on up
Theyre always pulling me down
I'm tired and Ive had enough
Its my life and Im living it now

You don't even know me
You say that I'm not living right
You don't understand me
So why do you judge my life

I always wonder why
People try to hurt me
No happiness in their own lives
So they act out all their jealousies

Who are you to say that I'm living wrong
Always telling me what to do
I've decided I gotta be strong
What makes you think that I needed you

You don't even know me
You say that I'm not living right
You don't understand me
So why do you judge my life

TLC - Case of the Fake People

I thought that I knew about ’em
Thought that they would never do me wrong
Well well the smile in your face
When all the time they wanna take your place
Them backstabbers
Same old scene that you’ve seen for so long
Always want to be around you
But as jealous as they come
Well don’t want you to win that race
’cause if you do it’s gonna lessen their space
That’s when I decide to say

Goodbye goodbye
To all the fake people in my life
I never wanted you around me
So be on your way now
You better think twice
Before you let people in your life
Because when you put down
No one is around
You got a case of the fake people

I thought that I new about ’em
The only ones that really cared for me
Oh yeah
But they shouldn’t be that way
Only down for as long as
You can give security
Same old scene that you’ve seen for so long
Always want to be around you
But as jealous as they come well
Don’t want you to win that race
’cause if you do it’s going to lesson their space
That’s when I decide to say

Goodbye goodbye
To all the fake people in my life
I never wanted you around me
So be on your way now
You better think twice
Before you let people in your life
Because when you put down
No one is around
You got a case of the fake people

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

The Official Awkward Day

Dear Diary.Fireworks or something outside. Can't even be bothered to look, I'm too fuckin' tired. Yawn.
I have made tomorrow the official awkward day. Now you don't have to feel awkward any other day because December 27th is the official one. Yes, I will get really drunk and make an ass outta myself. Why? Because it's the official awkward day, dammit! You heard it here first, don't say nothin' else about it.
I read an entire book yesterday. Proud of myself. But it was a weird book. Interesting, but weird. I recommend it to... weird people. Yeah, that's right, weird people. Not freaky people, not odd people, but weird people. You figure it out.
So... preparing for awkward day. Or awkward night. Somebody save me.

Monday, December 26, 2005


One more thing... I think I'll restart the Gunslinger today. I love books at Christmastime.
Peace out... blaeh...

Sunday, December 25, 2005

I'm dreaming of a fake Christmas.......

Dear Diary.Christmas Day. Feels weird. Not too into Christmas anymore(except Christmas song, they are so sweet), so I'm just chillin at the moment. I have time off and me gusta, as we say in spanish hahaha. I got the pressie I wanted, the LOST Season 1 DVD. Watched 2 episodes yesterday with my sis. Hard not to comment on everything. Yeah, Hanne always finds that extremely annoying, but that's just what I do. Trying to shake that habit too... When I look outside there's no snow, well, at least on the trees, but I'm guessing it'll come around New Year's, as it usually does. Well that's, at least, my impression. I remember snow for New Year's and also my b-day, which is soon. Scary shit, I'm getting very old. And I can't stop talking about it. Oh well.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Carrying 4,5 litres of beer for 3 hours... fun in my book!

Dear Diary.
Long day. GOD my legs hurt from standing up all day! Emptied out Centra at Colosseum for Mack, hehe, ready to partay! It was supposed to be just one type, but with the limited amounts there, I ended up with three types of Mack! I think the cashier was in shock.
Also ran an errand for my sister, who's in big shit now, can't really tell why, but you will know on Thursday, if you know both of us.
I am extremely tired at the moment, not looking forward until Christmas because I really don't give a f**k, I'm so tired of all the stress and everything. I think Christmas causes more pain and hurt than joy, to be quite honest. I'm really growing out of it. I dedicate Christmas to my future children: there you go, have fun with it!
I prefer summer. Eternal summer. Which takes me to the movie my sis forced me to see tonight; Napoleon Dynamite. Funny, but... not quite my style. I like other kinds of crazy, though I did chuckle at the latino "tough guys" and the "sweet jumps".
This week will be a week of a trance-like mode, emergency Christmas shopping and then sleeping away the holiday. Looking forward to a fresh (spanish) start and possible dancing.
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow,

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

a cold day in casa de K

Dear Diary.
New day, new opportunities! Or, in my case, sleep in a bit too much and get up at 11:30. I thought I'd shaken the habit, but proven wrong I certainly was!
Today will be a day of tidying and listening to spanish audio courses. I'm learning... very slowly... but learning. Quiero una cerveza fria. My most important phrase so far ha ha!
I thought I wasn't going to Florida (money issues) but then M said I could stay with him, so now I'm not sure. That saves me like 7000+++ and then all I hafta pay is 4500 for plane tickets! Well, reconsidering Florida at the moment. Now that I maybe can afford both that AND Mexico
Still looking forward to T and K coming in January, I can't believe it. Neither can they, this is their first jetlagged trip. Presently in Germany, T finds the food there "unattractive". Not a surprise, when I think of traditional German food. Wonder what she will think of the Norwegian one. We don't use as much as fat as the Germans, methinks, at least not in traditional courses.
Cheerio, gotta go clean and stuff,

Monday, December 19, 2005

The new system suxxxxxx

Dear Diary.I'm very tired from work. Not only is the new (and moronic) system at the store exhausting, I already did not have a lot of energy to begin with. And, of course, the other factor, not used to working at the moment. But I get by, as I always do, right? I also said yes to working today, finally ave the day off tomorrow. Goody.

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Short update

Dear Diary.
Wow, I haven't updated for a loooooong time. Suddenly got an urge to do just that. So much has happened since the last update, so I thought I might just give you a brief summary:
-Went to work for Disney. Again.
-Felt too old, decided to go back home.
-Started Biology studies in Tromsø.
-Biology sucks. Going back to Oslo for my language studies, this time Spanish & French instead of Italian.
-T & K are coming in January. Whoopee-dee-doo!